Relationships

So, a while back - in one of my previous blogs that I had (which now has cease to exist) I talked about "When's It My Turn?"
I kept seeing people falling in love, so many couples together - so many friends had, what I didnt have.
And so I went on a bit of a moan, you know how it goes...I really wanted someone in my life, someone to care for, to love and to be with.
Well I can tell you that, that, has since turned around!
I really don't want anybody! well not right now...and I don't plan to in the near future...
lol
Its funny how you can feel one thing - and then through certain experiences, and also words of wisdom - it can actually make you think again.

I have come to realise that God is most important, and until my relationship with Him is all cool, and also when i'm actually ready for a relationship, then I'm not looking for one, and I don't need one. Not until the right time. All in God's timing.
Back when I wrote that post, I was feeling quite down about it all - and since then I have, but recently I just, I dont think I really do.
I don't think personally I could cope with one at the moment! lol. I also just - if I am to be in a relationship in some point in my life - I just want it to be the way in which God intended it to be...just right =)

I went through a patch of liking someone, and I thought - oooh maybe this could be something - but like, you're like God - is this meant to be?!?! You're searching, really searching - and...some things that happen, make you think - man he could be the one! But...actually, you learn that maybe he wasnt...and he isnt, and thats cool. But throughout that time, I did not stop asking God for guidance. I would say to God, look I know I like this guy...but Lord - totally and honestly, even though it may be hard to come to terms with - if he isnt the right one then please let me know! Because firstly I so didnt want to go into a relationship that wasnt good for me, that wasnt right and also I just didnt want to go for the guy who in actual fact was "another womans guy!" (a good friend told me this a long time ago and has always been a reminder to me...)
So, yea I just kept asking and seeking God on it, even though at some points I found it hard to say - "Lord...your will, not mine "- I came to realise that I had to do this. God has my best interests right in the centre of His heart, and He has the best plans.

Its not been easy - but the more I have given it to God, I know that this has been fruitful and has helped lots and still is helping lots.

So right now - im so not interested in guys...yeesh - why was I in the first place?! haha!
Jokes!
Nah i'm just not ready..and until I'm ready - i just want to wait, and carry on my life, living and growing with Jesus as a single! Until I am ready to share it!

So there we go - that is what is on my heart at the moment. It hopefully made sense...oh havent I been saying that all my life! lol I may add, take away, change thinking over the course of the week,month,years...we shall see where life goes!

Blessings!