Ok so...

Ive been at work now for 5 weeks!
And yes it has been getting better...the weeks are going so much quicker!
I am learning lots about work, the world in which i live - which at the moment seems to be a dancey one lol, and learning about myself. Stuff that I dont like about myself and feel I want to change, finding out what I'm good at, bad at, when I work best and when I dont, and when Im just plain scared!
On looking back - the first couple of weeks have been a hectic time..although more recently its actually been ok. The first week - I didnt like work at all and was looking for ANY reason to get out of it - though i never found a reason becuase I always went in - despite the dread. lol
I guess it was a lot to do with the "being thrown in the deep end" kind of thing that made me feel so icky about going to work every morning.
With no administrator any more, it was really me who had to take on the reigns.
However though at times I have hated it, and been in tears (yes ..even in front of my work colleages...:S - though I see this as a good thing) I do feel that it has been the best way for me to learn - to be just thrown into it and have to deal with it - to have to swim.
There are still things that i dont really like doing - one of them being the phones. I would be much happier if I knew EVERYTHING to do with the company - but as I don't it just makes it that bit harder. If i knew everything I would be fine on the phone...I have grown in confidence - that is for sure.
So all in all - Im not having the same dread for going into work. And I am enjoying aspects of it - dare I say it!
And I think that the company like having me as a placement student - well at least ...I hope they do.

So a little summary of how work has been thus far and just looking back on how it has progressed.
I hope it will continue to help me grow as a person - and just shape my character even more - for better, because I do feel that I want to grow and also just to become a better person in Jesus.
I wonder how much of my life is reflecting Jesus?!